I don't believe in making wishes.

All my life, I have yearned for beautiful unreachable things that fill me with longing and desire yet I do not believe in putting them in lists to increase my agony. Wishlists seem like one of those dreamy gooey candies you see at the popcorn counter in movie theatres, that seem exclusive and distant.  

Therefore, I must resort to visually pleasing myself till I can actually hold these frobidden delicacies.  

Peter pan collar dress.

White lace dress.














Plaid Skirt.




And all of this.

the inside of your head is scarred.

I had the worst Christmas ever. See : sulking in my room while my parents think I am studying. Also end up sneaking out and sitting in the park trying to look sad and mysterious while listening to Opeth.

But I did watch THIS to inject some festiveness inside me.

Although I did go out for a party on Christmas eve. I don't know if loud music, booze and drunk girls throwing all over the place is supposed to be fun. Followed by a freak who drives maniacally and consumes cigarettes like a pack of munchies. I really need to find better friends -.-

Last night wasn't half as bad, I went for a sleepover with my sister's friends. We watched Saw and Addams Family. Initially, I meshed in pretty well with these people but eventually I withdrew and occupied an alienated bed with the softest quilt ever.

Other days are plain and boring with my guilt for not studying all over the place. A little voice in my head is still asking me to study while I scroll through these amazing designs by Phoebe English.

I want a giant discoball in my room.

I hate myself for being such a lazy bum but I blame the unbearable cold for my recent bouts of disfunctionality where I lie in bed the whole day doing nothing at all (i.e. consuming too much sugar and listening to inapprpriate songs).

Lately, I have been reading this and this.
& haha, this (somehow, precaps make me nervous. It means that the year really is about to end).
Listening to songs about summer even though I dislike the season since its too sunny for my taste.


Some pictures on christmas to get the christmas-y feel.

& this is what you missed on our show.

These pictures aren't exactly HQ since they were clicked by my phone's trashy camera.

Me and my sister, going to attend a wedding. Yes, my expression looks slutty but believe me, it wasn't intentional.

Worst smelling face pack ever.

A coat I recently got from Code.

colors.

These are some pictures I have collected form random sources that, unfortunately, I forgot to save.
I have linked the one's I know about.

I speak for myself.

Awesome pictures by Haser. I have recently learned to admire photographers for capturing a moment we otherwise wouldn't even notice. I wish I wasn't so awkward with a camera.
There is something massively wrong with my blogger.

I'm going to kill myself tomorrow.

Royal Tenenbaums.
I love the colors in this movie. Pink, yellow, red and their varying shades.
It brings to mind nervousness, anxiety, conflict and an underlying sense of peace.
I have always wanted a huge terrace and a library of plays.